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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

13.06.2025 03:45

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

I could never make a relationship work though!

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I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

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She wouldn,t have been !

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

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When she asked me how she looked .

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

And i lived it daily.

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Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

Who then, do I blame.?

And who doesn’t know suffering?

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We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

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He resisted the act ,that day.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

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I don,t even have a pension.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

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But ive been too sick for many years..

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

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I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

She found it foreign!.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

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And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

She was in good health!

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

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I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

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I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

It was going to be , some day.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

One cannot live in the past .

I was 9 years of age.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

I have no regrets .

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Ive learnt so much.

I waited trembling.

Especially a lifetime of it.

I never cut or harmed myself..

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

I know ,a lot about trauma.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Why did i forgive my father ?

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

So, i spoilt her more .

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Put me off passion for life!!

But it wasn’t much.

She married twice! .

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

I was very sick at this time too.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

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Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

He knew the spot.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

All the time i was locked up.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Comes on , in middle age.

I couldn’t, believe it.

This is soul school!.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

So whats the point in blame.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

We all went to grammer schools

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

What did i know ?

But, we were locked up after school.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

My family never makes their pension either.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

I write beautiful poetry .

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

I will be 64.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

I think the readers, may guess!

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

Im still living with it.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

They are buried together, in the same grave..

We were not on the streets..

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Would this be the day?

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

I said to her

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

The only rule us 5 kids had .

She loved him until the end.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Was to survive, this bastard.

As i do to all so called friends.?

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

On the 31st of Jan this month .

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

(And it was in our own minds.)

Im dying but, im not bitter.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

I was scared of men, in general

My life is so biszare .

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

I was seconnd youngest,

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!